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Sunday, June 16, 2013

A Fatherless Child


**A fatherless child ***



Father you were there only

in discipline, but ...
your presences never mattered 
It never represented anythings worth remembering.


You went to jail, even though,

you claimed to have God.

Being a Bishop...

Did you forget to let him be God?


You gave God to us, and expected us to use him,

yet you never exercised his purpose
just your own agenda with a mask ...
that the devil himself shared, nor
did you ever show God's love really to me.

I do thank you for having me, but
being my father, Well

i need to think about that one.
Nevertheless,
i am

because of you.
Yet i am in spite of you!
My real Father, became

My father when you gave me away
to your many days of abuse and pains.
God told me that He was now my Father, and
He never laid a hand on me like you did, ...
mamma and me, she now in a grave

make it hard for me to breathe
God is my Father now and my mother.
He is everything i needed,that you,...
dear father
never gave, 

or never was.


Jesus really loves me

Jesus gave his life for me

with a love you never showed,
a love you never gave,...yet
 you managed to leave me
a fatherless child.



Rosetta W. Nesbitt

Queenoflove
June 16 2013

Monday, February 20, 2012

Analyzing Self


No one is judging! God is the only one that matters when analyzing a life, on this level! To every man is his own spiritual responsibility, and to every responsibility, is every man to his own life! We must seek to look upon a  looking glass, to remember what we looked like after leaving our own image, then the world will reflect your memories back to you! There is no shame in admitting what you feel, or believe, because we will have to face our own reality, no matter what; whether we are weak, or strong, a lair, or a truth seeker, all in all, we must see it through, and what path it's sets our fate!


Bad is a behavior deemed only a personal perception that is measured by the viewers beliefs, not the one being perceived; therefore, we are not held up in our lives by what others think is bad. In the end, life has it's own expectations of each of us that comes at our birth. We must adhere to what nature set in our paths, whether, we like it or not! God is God, regardless to what others believe or not believe, the evidence of His Resistance is you, and I!


Out of all the things man has been able to create, man making man, is still the order to which God as governed of the law set over life and death! To be born is the beginning, and to die is the end. To exist in the living world, is to meet with God's ordain plan while on earth.  To die is to meet with God, to seal His promise to us to have eternal life.


As for love: love is a reward, not something to gain or lose because it is offered as a  gift. Love excuses and rectify shame, and guilt. Love forgives with a purpose to win over the heart of the giver,  but it must come through the channels of  forgiving permission. God gives, and God taketh away; therefore, we have no heaven or hell to put anyone in. We must only receive others in our hearts to love on them, which is a form of  heaven alone!


Rosetta Nesbitt
Queenoflove

Saturday, January 7, 2012

God has eyes are equipped with zoomed in lens



Everywhere we go, every step we take, all the miles we strive through,
every thought that pops up, God sees all, and  hears all, been there, done that, all to which He has gone through.  He has been with us all, the whole time! You think what you do is hidden in the secretary of your own freakishness, but he saw you! Yes God saw us do it all! His zoomed in lens tell the real tail of the truth in the hearts of all men! My mother preached a sermon that I will never forget before she passed away! In the sermon she said, that God don't want some of you! Wow! God don't want some of you? She went on to say, that your own clothes, your shoes, your cars, your houses, your food, your money will all be a witness against you one day!  Wow! This was powerful to me, and it has still stuck with me until this very day! People will never understand that even if you don't believe in God, you will recognize his existence in a fashion even unbeknownst to you, yourself.  I have heard people of unbelief, who proclaim to be atheists, say that they don't believe in God! When tragedies hit home, and things happen that an atheist don't have power, or control over, the first name I hear them call on is God!  When trouble is severely present, their words become, God help me!  Control  is interpreted to me in this scenario as meaning a kind of cocky confidence, that make people talk stupid talk!  Oh well, moving on! Once an atheist is placed in the position of helplessness, trauma, and pain, I've heard them call on God, over any other thing repeatedly. This makes me know that the brain, of all other body parts, recognizes its true creator's voice, working against our own ideas to disbelieve in God.


Calling on God! Here is a story I want to share that I hope you will get my point without confusion with more clarity. My personal description I have seen ants as smart as they are, that can work together to meet a specific need to complete a task in the body of numbers in a group. Ants can be very vulnerable in size from a philosophical perspective, as well as in reality to the human predictors. When they are spread thin and apart there is no content of their vulnerability.  Watching ants in numbers try to act out, and reinforce their threat to protect themselves from a predator, they become larger high number to intimidate.  Even I fear ants in large numbers.  When human beings stumbled across ants in large numbers, they think twice before stepping into them. Ants are can appear in an army of millions, when they are working toward a goal when aiming toward a purpose.  The first way that they get to us human beings, is by way of the human mind. Yes! Ants can over power humans through their minds.  Gathering in large numbers, they take on the appearance that look like dirt.  An ant can appear as  the very foundation we stand on.  the grounds of our very security is suppose to be stability can have an appearance of moving land, but be ants.. With the thick pack of ants gathering in numbers, they know at this point they have just broken down there victim confidence to try to harm them.  I some how believe that they are schooled on in the knowledge in their own ability to make us think twice, before we embark upon the dare, to walk on this thick  looking substance of uncertainty  the ants so  pertinently portray.   After the ants have broken down our minds to fearing them, they continue as not to be threatened by us any longer.  I think that they area so confidence at this point and start the reinforcement the  fear  by packed movement! They form a kind of suffocation appearance  to me. My mind has already seen them cover my entire body, before the can.  For large ant bodes to shake the foundation of land, causing the trust of the predator to be powerfully manipulating. At some point in all the movement of the ants, our minds feeds our body information that makes us fear the ants.  The mind plays out the senatorial of seeing billions of ants crowing all over us.  The amount of ant are already inside our heads playing out the idea that their size by the billions in numbers are going to get in our paints, hair, crouch, and other areas of our body before you can crush them all; because, as little as they are, they got speed and size on their side. So you don't want to go near a pack of ants, because of the possibility that they will overtake you.  Instead of you challenging the pack of billions of ants, you high tail and run away from them, but, Oh wait!  You are bigger then a little bitty old ant? Why don't you exercise your human confidence in size and knowledge to take them on? They were, too, big for the human mind to deny, that’s why, the ants won.


There is always power in the unknown. Now do you still stand strong on your stand to deny God?  To deny that there is a God; one would need to have the confidence to take on billions of ants, first! Ants are but mire flesh, that is so small all they got is faith to reach in the empty spaces of the own world, and let faith guide their actions to chase away evil!  Wow! The power of the smallest of Gods creatures! I remember reading in the bible one day about how when the Israelite armies was lead to fight the giants philistines they were out numbers y faith and not by sight. Saul questioned Gods mentality to send them out to fight giants with a small army. Saul said, Lord we are small in number and will never be able to fight such large giants with these numbers. God told Saul to have faith. God said I will fight for you; mall you have to do is show up! Well the army went forth ad the Lord commanded him and won the war! This was a human war, against large giant humans the opposite of the ants. We being human being constantly walk by sight, it gives a since of false confidence that do not in reality excite. An atheist thinks that they can deny a God larger then themselves only because they have not yet had their true first time interaction with God! Once they meet God it will disprove their philosophy that there is no God! But see God was no full! God knew not to trust the minds of man. Man's mind is too often the devil workshop when idle, and unproductive. You see the mind is just as powerful as the ants I spoke of earlier. The mind can make you feel a sense of confidence that do not in reality exist!  In other words, the mind can only to often react to something that it is introduced to, but it will never be able to go past your limited ability to know something you have never introduced to it!  If you can not connect to the idea of needing to be saved from something, then you have known fear of it! If the mind is unfamiliar to something it denounces it as real!


My example of God as a reality is, when I have been to the mountain, and then thrown to the valley, trouble made me seek pass those two place as they limited my ability to the area I was in with at the mountain or in the valley! I reach in the empty spaces between the two and there I found salvation! You see I had reach a moment of needing a reprieve, and escape from he two ideas I was stagnated to. When I decided to make up my mind to reach toward the unknown, the unfamiliar, to walk on the billions of ants, to take on the large giant human beings, it has helped me to meet with my own mortality. You see, I had nothing to lose. Reaching into the empty space of the unknown took me to a place of blind trust in something bigger then me. 
When we thick that nothing is for us, and nothing is against us, where do we get the idea to come to this type of conclusion?  Too, often it comes from pride, cocky confidence it something we can touch, see, feel, smell, and hear!  Unfortunately, earthy living has deluged our reality I to depending of life rather that trusts what I'd beyond death. Life is life and death is life! Life is that which is owned by its own reality as an individual substance! Faith! Yes faiths is in the living, as well as in death; because we all will one day have to face them both and all the challengers that goes along with them as an individuals. God is the empty spaces between life and death! He is the source that operates the power source around, about, between, above, and under both realities of all realities! You can't escape either one, because His eyes are on us all with zoomed in lens that see into all the areas, all the thoughts limited to the brain, all the substance of hope of reprieves in between the darkness and the light! You can not escape the darkness, but God can see in it!  You can't escape the light, because God see in it. One thing that I have learned about God and that is that you will one day need to barrow Hid light to move forward, and you will need Hid permission to help you come through the darkness!


Even the water has been giving a source of individual power! God communicated with the water and ask that it move to the ferment of the earth, and reveal the dry land that it was in possession of!  The water to this day still holds the power of mysteries for the human being that lives within its perimeters.  Water lives a life unbeknown to man! Their curiosity is a very puzzling to man. Even the substance of power water posse is revealed, even now but we have lost it in our knowledge concerning its history and treasures from centuries before Christ. The many different questions and myths that human beings have made up to justify within reasoning of their own minds what they truly do not know about the possession water has yet still to this day.  Man has tried to go into the water and record what the human being s walking on the dry land would never had known had they not went to reveal it in photographs, and brought into captivity the things that present us with questions of what else is in existence in the water. In Baltimore there is a place called water world. Water world is a place where people go under the water levels to see the different spices within their own habitats. Now this is a good example of the unknown eyes of man and the indivisible eyes of God! When we go to visit this place we go deep down into the land under water level where there is glass all around us allowing us to see into the world of these different mammals lives. Now, what will happen to the visitors if the water decided to use its power to force the glass out of its view? Don't put it pass the water not to have possesses of this type if power, because if you remember water was the first life source that God interacted with and spoke to.  So I'd the water had possession of the earth in the beginning it can also take possession back in the end.


Example, the tsunami's that has been happening around the world lately comes from the force and power of the water being held back by God a source biggest then even itself, not to release it's self over the fullness of the earths foundation unless He orders it so. So the tsunami spells a little of its force in the empty spaces of Gods hand hold it back, thousands, even millions still lost there live. Never under estimate the smallest of power released on the foundation of the earth.  God is ever watching, his eyes wide open. God wants us to have the facts; he said through the new testaments of His servant Paul, that things concerning God are still a mystery to the people of this world and generation. We must learn to respect the eyes of God! Humbling ourselves in the privacy of others eyes when not presently witnessed! We must live our life through God eyes!  We must understand that God see deep in our hidden core and He does not judge us based on the things we do on the surface of our beings, but through the core you that only you know!  You, I am thinking right now, how when I have to be somewhere early in the morning and I am not use to getting up, I would set my alarm clock to an hour early.  Now, who set that alarm clock? Me! Yes me! Can I fool myself? Yes, but only when your own mind is fuzzy and have sedated from sleep. If you were in your right mind when that alarm goes off, you could not be fooled, and you will keep hitting snooze until your hour is used then you try to catch up with the time you spent struggling with the snooze button. You see they say you can fool some of the people some of the time, but you can't fool yourself none of the time, which in reality I'd true!  Your eyes on you!


Get this! You set your alarm. You go to sleep, and the sanatorium is taking over to place you in a sedative sleep state while your body secretly mends itself without you looking. Amazing isn't it!  Your own body won't allow you in on the process it’s your nightly rituals to restore your health to wellness, from the wares and tares of the day before. Now you awaken to the sound of the hour ahead of time alarm clock. You are still woozy and half sedated. Right at the second you are interrupted from your keep state you have no power except but to make yourself wake up! The alarm is a interruption, and it startled you, so you responded in accordance to your sedated state and got up. That does not accrue too often, and especially if you had a restless night sleep where you rashes with your on body from sedating you. This type of phenomenal only accrues when your mind is filled with worrisome things that fight sleep! You see the areas that I speak of in this writing how the u seen things have Gods touch. So you will never escape the zoomed in lens of god! You can never even deny the one rue God even if you want to, because the minds already knows who created it, and it will sucrose to it's true creator of you in most situations, even when you are thrown into the valley of despair, or the mountain of self-control, no matter what, you will always com face to face with the empty spaces where God sits and await for you to reach outside the only two humanly known places of control to His will and support through salvation and redemption from sin.  The darkest place is over taken by His light; wherever, God exercise His power sedate the body’s mind, and spirit to heal and restore us unto Himself, as our original Creator, GOD!
Author: Rosetta Nesbitt




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Monday, December 26, 2011

Label, Is what life labels us


When I read “Violence in Intimate Relationships: a Feminist Perspective” by Bell Hooks, I agreed whole heartedly with my perspectives. Whenever someone is labeled base on a situation that person is branded with the stench of that situation for life, and it’s hard to shake off the residue of it.  Women are the most labeled creatures I know. If a violent act happens to a man no one goes around calling him the name of that situation, it’s usually separated from the gender side of things.  One thing I like that I really agree with that Ms. Hooks said, I will quote  “We females often think we are not entitled to ourselves, and many times give ourselves away for less than a song. The sad truth of the matter is that this is how we have managed to survive in our male-dominated culture.”  After reading this piece, I would ask myself a question. Why wouldn’t I risk everything to claim everything that is at stake for me to completely have myself to myself as a whole?  Men don’t always feel the need to explain themselves after they’ve given a response to most situations. There is no conscious need to have the approval of women in relationships. It’s like they make the women grovel at there feet to tenderly love them. It like a woman’s need to be affectionate is needed by her more than by men.  This isn’t true, because women are the caregivers and in life, whenever, you give to someone else it’s often time, because you have it to give in the first place.  I ask myself this other question. If I could override the label that follows me, if it precedes me in my reputation, how would I change it, if I could? I would say, I would invest into the real estate into my life, move into the surrounding comforts of this world, and invested fully my own self-esteem, and confidence, so that I could be my person ‘self-real-estate’ is metaphor for not letting a people brand me. This story really made me think more about labeling. Calling someone out of their name such as ‘violence against a person to label them to it as it relates to women, and violence, is cruel, and an injustice to those women who initially become victims.  This is not right? No. I think not.

The Swing




A lady walks by a park, 
A place where she grew up.
The park is old, empty, and gray.
Just when she looks over at the sliding board
Her mind goes off into her past.


Memorizing herself there....
playing with lots of girls and boys 
Running, and laughing to the chase.
She sneaks a giggle out loud unaware
She imagine seeing her little girl self there.



Seeing how happy she once was....
Was now a place filled with empty moments in time,
she began to relive memories of childhood 
While, not caring to see if anyone's around.



Looking over at the swing
She thought to see....
if the little boy who always beat her to the swing was there, 
Just before she took one step, looking everywhere...
She saw that he was no where to be found, she goes for the swing.



Closer and closer she gets to the swing...
A big smile on her face
then out of the blue, that little boy shows up too.
He jumped in to that last swing she thought to retrieve 
Hanging out his tongue at hers, Laughing 



Nan man nanny boo boo ...I got you!
I got here first, He said
Nam nanny boo boo!  



She squeezed her eyes tightly
to make the boy disappear.  
Because that little boy who always 
raced her to that last swing, and won again!
Hey!  ....she said...out of nowhere...
That's my swing, I saw it first.



She pauses!  ...in thought!
Hey!
Hum mm
Hum mm
Wait one minute! 
This is my memory ... Not anyone else!



Closing her eyes tightly, tighter 
She said, 
I wish I may, 
I wish I may 
I wish I may have all these swings today.



She opens up her eyes... and all the swings
...where now empty
Not one child ...could be found for mile in the park .
She looks staring all around.



Yay! Yah! I did it!
Walking not running ... 
A big smirk on her face smiling ...with a big huge smile!
Sitting slowly on one swing,
She touches  it with her hands tenderly, as if it were soft.
She began counting...
one swing, two swing,  
three swing, four swing all for me.



Pumping and pumping
Higher and higher
Laughing and laughing out loud
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee 
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeshe 
Fun fun fun fun 



she thought, and closed her eyes to scream out...
Yelling higher! 
Higher, yells the little girl! 
Pumping and pumping..Much harder each time
higher, and higher, much higher she goes!
Swinging high in mid air



The little girl opens her eyes,  
when ....her lady self reappeared!
Shame appeared, too.
Because she caught herself 
swing on a swing dangling there.



She was reliving her childhood happiness!
So she began to smiles, 
smiling she goes, wow, this is fun... 
who cares if I'm not a child, cause I am having fun.



A man walks by looking up at the swinging lady
He said,
My you sure are swinging high!
She never heard him....
her eyes fix on the sky!



She was living her inner child! 
A big Breeze flowing through her long hair 
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Thank you, she thought, to the little girl inside
You made my day, like a pie in the sky!



Swinging high 
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee 
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee 
Never noticing the man ...said goodbye
She'll never know he was the little boy,
who took the last swing, when she was a  child!
The man had come to the park ...
for one last look inside the memory of his inner child.



Rosetta Nesbitt

THE TEST


Artist: Rosetta Nesbitt
                                                             NOVEMBER 13TH 2002©


One day I awoke to find myself all alone in the world. I was thinking in my mind how it would be to shop until I drop. Grooming myself for the start of my day, I begin to think about all of the free food left in the world I could chose from and eat. Steaks, wines, even my favorite caviar I could eat as much as I want and never have to pay for it.  While combing my hair, I thought of all the perms, and hair colors I could chose from I want. Oh! Wow! This is going to be a sweet revenge on all the girls who hated on me in school. While thinking about all that I could do being by myself.  It reminded me of a girl I once knew who always hated on me. That Liz Ponchos girl! She tried to beat me up all the time!  The name was Liz Ponchos.  Liz hated me!  Just one thought of her name I get happy feelings of sweet revenge. I can see it now, jealousy bleeding through her eyes when she find out I had total assess to everything in the whole world. I smiled at this thought this prospect. As I continued to get dress, I decided to hit the clothing stores first. This will help me to work up a good appetite with all the food choices available to me. Little old me can have anything I want and nobody can interfere with me. I did just that, shopping! I hit the Hecht’s department store first as was one of my dreams stores to shop at. I swear! I saw Liz outside that window looking at me in this store.  Ho! I am just wishing! I thought in my mind could this can’t be true that Liz is here? Laughing I thought that I was being foolish. I am the only soul left in the whole world, it can’t be true. I moved on with no more thoughts about it till the next store. Penny’s was next! Yes! Sitting in the window were all kinds of shoes and bags. I went in look quickly behind me and again I thought I saw a reflection of Liz looking back at me. I could have sworn that I could see Liz’s reflection looking back at me. Oh girl! Go on! You know nobody else is here but you! I thought! The thought passed on again. I moved on in for the kill on the shoes. Shoes! Shoes! Shoes! Oh Yeah! I found one shoe that I like and got one in every color.
Now! Now! Now! Now! Now Girl!  It’s time for me to get my grub on. Finally food! I sat down at the table taking off my coat, and stretched my arms and legs wide while I yawned. I was tired from all that shopping and carrying bags. I picked up the menu to see what I wanted to eat. Sitting their like someone was suppose to come and take my order! Ho!  I forgot! Low and behold to me there was one thing I had for got about, when I sat down at the table to eat. Nobody was here but me! There was no one here to cook me some food. Thinking I can’t cook! Oh My I am going to starve if I don’t get something to eat. Looking out into the air, I thought I saw Liz again.  I said what? ‘What the hell!’ I decided I am going to check this out. This vision is happening too much. I moved from my table quickly.  I ran to the spot where I saw her at Last. She had disappeared again then reappeared again. Okay! What the hell in going on here? Who are you? Liz is that you?  I saw her again! I yelled! Liz, is that you?  Are you really here? Yes! The voice yelled back to her! Liz was frightened. I was following you all day.
I was watching you live high off the horse with things you have available to you.  Did you ever stop to think that you are the only soul left in this world? No one else is in the whole face of the earth but you? And You only! All you thought about was yourself. I’m gonna be honest with you. I am not really Liz!  What the? I just look like her because you sort after her face in your mind for desperate for revenge.  I am GOD! And I put some people through to see what they are really made of.  I want them to see what is really in them!  What’s really in them? What kind of God tricks an innocent little girl yelled Liz!
All along, you never did wish to see or touch your family, or friends.  All along, you never thought about anyone but you supposed to love the?  All you thought about was yourself and material things Instead. You failed my life’s exam.  You are now going to be forever alone for this is your chosen fate.  Rats! Yelled Liz! She said: can I get another chance Lord. I’m sorry! I promise! I promise I will start thinking about others more. I promise!  She looked into the eyes of the Lord who is not easily fooled and she asked: You mean Liz will never get to see me ware my new dresses, and shoes. GOD said, Wow! Did that girl really hear what I just told her? Ungracious are you. Your new name will be Food for thought! Your name will go down with you in your eternal life of Hell. This is it, I wash my hands. Devil, open up your mouth, because here goes food for thought at your pleasure! The Devil even said to the Lord.  No Thanks! I don’t have room for the likes of her! You sure you can’t do something with that girl Lord! He Said Well!
  
AUTHOR: ROSETTA NESBITT



“Whose Body Is It, Anyway?


  In any situation where a rape has accrued, it needs to be told. To be silence is good which is what most women have been taught to believe. You are the good little girl if you would just be quiet when someone violates your body, and everyone will love you for it.  Isolation in violent situations precedes more violence and eventually death.  I think that younger girls are ignorant to their surrounding, and they ignore the potential for death associated with this kind of violence. Older women who act out sexually, to gain attention are usually not really highly sexual beans, but they use sex to gain security in food, shelter, cars, jewelry,  and the “big-one” unconditional LOVE, which they almost never really get out of the deal. 

Selling out your self-respect, for a false since of confidence, and hope is not going to come to you through promiscuity, but death will. The potential for sexual violence crimes are high off the chart, for kids in school, because of the roaring hormones that are out of control without out proper teaching on how to control themselves, they just holds out the welcome mate.  I personally had a bad intimate experience in my school, and other ones of my friends had also. It all starts from just an innocence of a teen bullying other students, and eventually domination comes through the confidence of power over the person that the violence was directed to. 
Things aren’t always as innocent as they appear.  In play is where most violence introduces itself, and it really starts there. Innocent play can eventually becomes a violence act to over power in all.  Teaching kids how to respect others kids, should be their first lesson in life, but to, exceed teaching them about sex. 
Girls are not a piece of meat to be cut into pieces, and distributed out to every man that smells satisfaction coming.  I think, secrets that harm you are not secrets at all! Its best if we told someone that can help us find a way to acknowledge the wrong that was done to us.  This is your right, as a female, not to be caved into hibernation for the rest of your life because of your gender, or hunted by a predator where you are only let out when you need to eat or bath. To survive in life, and have your pleasure is a personal thing, and no one else’s needs, there should supersede your own.   
Rosetta Nesbitt


The Story Of the Geese


Once upon a time there was a little girl who lived outdoors with her mother, father, and little brother.  Everyday they wondered what they would eat.  It was very cold at night, and very hot in the day time. The family was without a home. They had no money to buy food, or clothing. There was a family of geese always around them in the park. One night the little girl said to her mother, Mommy does people pass by us, and see us living outdoors care. The little girl asked, why they won’t do something to help us mommy. The mother looked down at her little daughter and said, honey, do you see those families of geese over there, you see how they stay together, and walk in groups everywhere they go. Those geese are more human then humans themselves, they have more passion then some people when it comes to people caring whether we sleep or eat everyday. Honey you see, one day your father and I had a home. We brought you and your brother into the world when we had a beautiful big three story house with three and a half bathrooms. There was a big back yard with a pool and a swing. Oh how we use to have so much fun entertaining and having cookouts with our friends. You had your own room and your brother too. Your father and I use to sing you to sleep and you always needed the light on. Why mom, was I afraid of the dark. Well yes, kind of honey. Now, you sleep in the heart of the darkness without protection don’t you sweetie. Well that doesn't mean that your father and I won’t keep you safe, it just means that your fear of the dark has swallowed us all up into it. The good thing about you being in the darkness now is we are all swallowed into it together. We even got an adopted family of geese that stay around us all the time helping to protest us.  We use to have two cars and a refrigerator full of food. We even had all the ice cream you could ever want. Then one day your father lost his job, because they were losing money at the factory paying their employees. They let some of the workers go, and your father was one of the first to let go. Why mommy, didn't they know that daddy had two children that he had to provide for, the little girl said? Mommy don’t the president know that we live outside? I don’t know, sweet heart her mother said, I don’t know what is happening to us as a people, but I don’t think that we are big enough for the president to know about where we are living. But moms, if the president knew that there were two children living on the street wouldn't he order his policeman to help us? Well sweetie, I would assume so, but in the real world we must try to fend for ourselves in order to survive this.  Like the geese they don’t have a house either, or food stored up inside of a refrigerator, but God provides for them everyday. You know sweetheart the thing I think that helps those geese survive everyday is the fact that they stay together and get good exercise everyday, because they walk in group showing protection, support, and loyalty to one another. The little girl laid her head on the lap of her mother as they set on the park bench, and her mother begin to sing to her as she drifted off to sleep. The Little girl was sound a sleep, her mother looked down at her daughter with tears in her eyes and looked back up at the family of geese in the distance and said, someday the geese family will see that we need help and let us join their family group walks. Then the mother went to sleep herself while the father watched as his family slept. The little girl’s father wanted to keep his family safe, so he stayed awake. Time past and the father fell asleep unknowingly, but little did the family know the geese family would not leave their side they watch over them like they were part of their own geese family. The morning came and the little girl was the first to awake, she looked around with an intense look of alertness on her face to see if her family was okay after they slept all night.  She looked around with a sigh of relief knowing that everyone was safe. Then a miracle happened right before her eyes. One of the geese that she and her mother had seen the night before was giving birth to a baby geese right in front of her.  The little girl’s eyes got so big that she forgot that she hadn't eaten breakfast and was hungry when she had awakened earlier. She froze and marveled at the fact that she was watching geese give birth, and that she was witnessing it. Seeing the geese give birth showed her a picture inside her own head of her mother and father closely hovering around her being born in the hospital. She felt feeling of warmth and safety being with both her parents, they protected her.  She thought inside her head that the baby geese must be feeling this warmth that she had felt in the vision of her parents giving birth to her. I think the geese and the little girl forgot that they were both homeless at this point of my story. Just then the Mother awakens to see the birth as it unfolded. She said to her little daughter, Shy, Shy, keep quite, don’t move or make noise, or we will scare her and she might hurt the baby if she’s afraid and gets up and run away. The little girl never heard a word her mother said she was in such arc of the sight of the birth taken place. The mother knew that her daughter didn't hear her because she never looked back at her. The mother whispered honey did you hear me. There was no answer. The mother took a closer look at the little girl and saw that there were tears running down her daughters face. The mother was so touched by seeing her little girls crying that she begin to cry. While all this was taken place the groups of other geese family was all around the mother giving birth. They surrounded her to protect her and her baby from any potential danger. While the little girl and her mother was watching and crying they so caught up in the moment of the birth that they never noticed that the father and the littler brother was also crying and staring at this little miracle taking  place in front of them, too . Everyone was so in tuned to what was happening that they never notice the growled of people that was building up around them. This was such an emotion moment that one of the bystanders in the growled notified Channel Five, Seven and Nine News within minutes. The whole event was being filmed as it unfolded before them. Watching this miracle was one of the bountifulness’ of the sight.  Any one could see how nature worked well together with it’s habitats in any surrounding with the whole homeless family standing around the geese crying at the sight of the beauty of nature. That evening the geese was up and waking around. The homeless family watch as everyone walked away even the geese walked away with the whole pack of them together around the new mother and her baby for protection. All was quiet now, and the little girl asked her mother, mom what you think will happen to the geese now that they have a new baby. The little girl’s mother said, they will be a bigger family now. The geese will stay with each other until they grow apart and give birth to enough geese to start another group of geese that form a walking pack. In the mean time the whole pack of geese will continue to stay together in a pack walking as a group everywhere they go. Honey, did you know that the humans even honor the geese when they walk across the street in packs. The cars stop for them to pass. That’s a lot of power when numbers come together and protest their point this earn them respect.  If we could get other humans to care enough by walking together in large numbers someone will listen and this is a way to change our human situations, sweetheart. People like us and those who care must form groups to show their strength in numbers, and walking in a peaceful protect wouldn’t hurt our cause either.  Later that night little did the family know that the growled of people were concerned for them when the news showed the world a replay of their family all standing around the geese given birth, and their family all crying on the news. People called the news stations after seeing their family wanting to know where they could give a donation.  People wanted to help after such a moving sight took place with the homeless family and the geese. Everyone wanted to help this family get a home to live in.   Everyone around world that night watched but they family had no idea of what everyone had seen.  A police man came to the park and ask the family where they living in the park. They were afraid that the officer was going to make them leave, wondering where they would go then. This park was their home and safe place. Even the geese watch over them as there own. The officer said Maim, Sir I am going to have to take you and your family to the station. The officer said, now I don’t want no trouble just come along peacefully. So the family went with the officer to the station. When they got to the station they were told that someone paid for them to stay in a hotel for the night, and they would get up to a big breakfast before they meet with the person who donated the hotel to them. The family mumble among themselves in wonder as to who, what, was happening, and why. They decided not to worry and look a gift horse in the mouth, but just to take the gift and enjoyed it because they didn't know how long it was going to last.  The next day they family got out of bed late in the morning very hungry and well rested. They went to the hotel restaurant where there was a big breakfast spread out just for them. The little girl and her brother said, the same time, this is all ours Mom, Dad, and the parents said, I guess so, lets eat, don’t ask question, lets eat. They ate until their stomachs were full and bloated. The family enjoyed their meal.  An escort came and told them that they will be going shopping for some clothes and shoes; because someone very important wants to meet with them later in the day. The family was so excited that they just giggle and whispered among one another.  When they got back to the hotel from shopping the family was instructed to go take a bath and put on their new clothes. They didn't quite no what was going on, and they were also puzzled as to what changes were they in for after today.  The little girl thought to herself, all this because a baby geese was born. Little did the little girl know that the geese family got together and planed to make the people help them by walking in big number as geese family group. They knew that they would be seen because of the way the cars respected them when they walked across the street together. The geese were determined to get help for the family, but they never knew it was all planned this way by their geese friends. The baby being born in front of all the people was a trap to get the attention to the homeless family to help them and it worked.  Well another escort came to the room to get the family and bring them to a ball room in that same hotel. When they walked through the hotel hallway to get to the ballroom there were wall to wall people clapping and yelling yah! Yah! The family was more puzzled now then ever. When they got to the ballroom there were more people, thousands of them. Just when they were escorted into the room the president stepped up to the family and said, I would like to shake your hands Maim, Sir, and your little ones here. I saw your story on the television, and there were so many people pouring out money to help you, and you family.  I was so moved to do something myself that I sent for your family, because I wanted to be the first one to do something about your situation. I had you put up in the hotel for the night with all the food you could ever eat available to your family. The father was crying so hard the one of the secret service men begin to hold him as he was overcome with emotions. The president said, when I saw that you were homeless, watching your whole family crying on television as the geese gave birth, while the other geese stood around your and the birth like armed guards, it was a picture unforgettable. It was an overwhelming moment for the world to see that when their fellow citizens are in need, or troubled we can all pull together like the geese, support one another.  The little girl looked up at her mother with tears in her eyes and said, see mom I told you that the president cares about people who are homeless with little kids, see I told you the little girl said. The Mother looked at her husband and asked, do you think the geese walk did lead to all this on purpose for us. The husband said It’s possible honey, it’s possible, because it them that got us all this attention, so maybe so they could have walked us into our miracle. Salvation has come to us room our fellow human being who really cares and wanted to make a different where they could. The little girls said, Mom, dad, I believe in the geese. I believe in the human compassion, but after today, I also believe in our president. The miracle that took place today by our fellow human beings brought a feeling of sympathy and safety to us. We all made a difference by pulling together in numbers and now we have a home again.  The little girl sensed that the geese were around them near by the hotel. She ran to find a window to see if she was right. When she couldn't find a window the little girl ran out the hotels big double motor doors. Behold, there were about a hundred geese surrounding the hotel, marching in numbers around the hotel in support of their fellow friends from the park. The little girl waved at the geese and yelled fair well my fellow geese family, fair well and a tear fail from her left eye watching the geese all walk away in large numbers.

The end




Wednesday, December 21, 2011

LONG TERM AFFECTS


LONG TERM AFFECTS

When we decide to do something, it has consequences attached to it. We should think and visualize the long term effects our decisions because they will have lasting effects. These consequences happens to any one making any kind of decisions good, or bad. Lasting effects are the one thing that come back too us, because we reap out of life what we sow into our life from an original decisions!

I was thinking about how far would I go back in my life if I started thinking before I act.  The long term effect of things that comes back on us is because we react before thinking in most cases. If I did not make the right decision about who I got with in marriage  my children would have been different. May life would have less sufferings, or maybe not enough. My marriage might be intact today and my heart would never had been broken.  All the things we do, will come back to us, so many different ways, that it could have a cause, and effect on the sufferings of others, but mostly ourselves.

 Regret is not even on the table hear! The fact is that, I am making myself aware of the long term effect in the future of my decisions, because it will benefit everyone in the long run that I come in contact with!  My self-esteem is not very good, because of childhood abuse, But I am determined that My future will be more at ease, from this day forward.  It’s my life to live, my life that dies, and no one can take my place, when God calls me home, whether, it’s my coming in, or my going out, you can’t go with me in an unconscious state.  From this day forward no one will have the power to ruin a happy future with God’s help.  It will start with me, taking better care of me, and you will have to start with you to take better care of you!

We have to live what we talk about, and talk only about what we have lived. There can be no substitution for this type of reasoning. We think being married, having kids, or even being born, we can escape the troublesome part of the good that  follows fate, but not so. Good almost always has to be tried with some type of bad to validate, it validity to be good. Why, because if it is truly good, it must be tried in the fire of its own claimed. Bad will always come up against good, when it tried to rear it’s ugly head in a shared space with good. Example our children may be pretty, innocent and sweet at birth, but they grow up with a mouth that grows always superseded their body size, and it never quits, it gets worst.  Decisions need valid responsibility, or it will cease to be taken seriously.  I say we should always require true test of good or bad before we commit to it . This just means, if you marry, see both sides of the one your choose to spend your life with, push them to a safe brim, and them make your choice. People can hid behind infatuation for years and years, and years, hoping that you will become satisfied with what you see, when reality is they change when you disconnect then and only then will this part of the good be bad enough to tell the truth about your decision.